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Italian Food --- 11:27 PM

Everyone knows that I am an Italian Food Junkie.
And ever since my successful chicken stew, I am addicted to cooking.
I've been surfing the net for some Pasta recipes etc.

And I am super hungry now..

I will love to dig into some super tasty Calzone now.
Maybe some Mushroom Cheese Ravioli..
and I freaking miss Carbonara and the Aglio Olio from Basil and Alcove!

Goodness
I need to get a quick fix!

I have always wanted to go to Pietrasanta at Portsdown Road
$25 should be able to get a decent pasta and yummilicious dessert.

I think I should celebrate my birthday there or something..
Yes, I am turning 22 in 4 months!
Now, I am in my early twenties...
I am horrified!

22!
I'm not a youth youth anymore lar!!!! I am like... 22 years old, early twenties.. and then soon I will turn 23, and it will just add on..

Anyways... Yea, I think I should not torture myself and others like what I did to ZhengHao's birthday party.. I hijacked his party lar.

I should plan something for myself next year.. and as much as I hate to say this, I am super jealous of the small exclusive steamboat dinner that Matthew had for his birthday.
And I also loved Yilong's Exclusive "Say no to Party" birthday celebration at Timbre lar..

My mum always ask why I love birthdays..

Hey... when you're born on the 29th February, U SEIZE the day to celebrate.

TIMBRE, PIZZA!! Italian Food!

Full Circle people!

Alright..

Who wants to go get some Italian Food with me?

Let me know!!!
(also whether u're paying for the bill.. hahahaha!)

Shallow Post --- 10:13 PM

I am going to write a shallow post.

Before that..
I am going to Orange next Jan!!!
Orange County is in California, 40 minutes away from L.A, it's like from Bukit Batok to Kallang.
Together with 7 other students, we will be going to Chapman to take our inter-term module.

Absolutely no idea which module we're taking.

And of all the students going, Reza is prob the closest to me. But I guess there will be some fostering done over there lar huh.

Having that said..
here comes my very shallow post..

If U want to get something out of goodwill or christmas.. These are the following.. May not be exact but you get my idea lar huh.

1) Cadet Jacket

Super nice right? It's from A.E, US$39.95

2) A Peacoat

A PeaCoat from A.E as well. US$99

3) A Hoodie

4) A strapped Boot

4) A Strapped Ankle Heel

Okay.. I really love heels lar.. I used to buy expensive heels cos I like the quality.. I like leather and all.. but I am super broke.. So THANKS GUYS!

5) JAS M.B Shoulder bag..

Looks super nice right??? I know.. I love this kinda messenger shoulder bag. But the price is stunning lar.. US$654.07. If U were to get me this, I will be indebted to you for the whole of my life lar!!!

6) Casio Vintage Watch

No stress... as cheap as $20 also can get. With Warranty somemore

Generally, I like leather, jackets and vintage stuffs.
If you don't know what to get for me, just follow these rules..

Shoes, Bags = Love Leather
Shoes, Bags = Love Vintage as well
Jackets = I don't like gurly jackets, I like those that flatters the waist, has very good cutting, very nice lining, very blazer like..

I LIKE VELVET TOO..

And generally, anything that is vintage attracts me as well. Especially Bags and Watches!

Tadah!

My christmas wish list.

I need clothes leh.. Come lar!

Addicted to Cooking --- 11:38 AM

Okay.. I cooked Chicken Stew for Elvin and his family yesterday..

SOUND IMPRESSIVE RIGHT?

I used Tim Pan's Easy recipe.

I added too much veggie but it was compensated since I didn't put a lot of water either.

Shitake Mushroom, Broccoli, carrots and chicken drum-lets.

I feel like a genius lor!

Now I am addicted to cooking.

I just checked a few recipes that seem easy enough.

And since I am such a Pasta Cheese Italian Junkie right? I am considering these fews..

Baked Pasta with Spinach, Ricotta and Prosciutto

Cornbread and Beef Skillet Pie

Baked Penne with Chicken

Macaroni and Cheese

I think I will either cook Baked Penne with chicken or Macaroni and cheese lar.. they seem the easiest.

Maybe next Monday or this Sunday!

YUMMY!

Especially when I am fasting, I can smell all these food by looking at the recipes.

Hahaha.. I just subscribed to an account in Martha Stewart's Web.

DAILY DINNER recipe to my hotmail account that is.. I don't want anything to bomb my gmail.

Hahaha.. I am ultra excited lor!

Headache! --- 11:59 PM

You know what they say about throbbing headache and uncontrollable sneezing?

It's the weather! Rain

And I can't sleep because the headache is.... IMPOSSIBLE LAR!

Can't find any cold/flu med at home..

Just popped the sleeping aid pill... waiting for it to kick in..

It's SLEEPING AID!! I should fall asleep at any second..

I just googled what throbbing headache and sneezing may mean..

The Complete Headache Chart

Type	Symptoms	Precipitating Factors	Treatment	Prevention
Hangover Headaches	Migraine-like symptoms of throbbing pain and nausea not localized to one side.	Alcohol, which causes dilation and irritation of the blood vessels of the brain and surrounding tissue.	Liquids (including broth). Consumption of fructose (honey, tomato juice are good sources) to help burn alcohol.	Drink alcohol only in moderation.
Caffeine- Withdrawal Headaches	Throbbing headache caused by rebound dilation of the blood vessels, occurring multiple days after consumption of large quantities of caffeine.	Caffeine.	In extreme cases, treat by terminating caffeine consumption.	Avoiding excess use of caffeine.
Exertion Headaches	Generalized head pain of short duration (minutes to 1 hour) during or following physical exertion (running, jumping, or sexual intercourse), or passive exertion (sneezing, coughing, moving one's bowels, etc.).	10% caused by organic diseases (aneurysms, tumors, or bloodvessel malformation). 90% are related to migraine or cluster headaches.	Cause must be accurately determined. Most commonly treated with aspirin, indomethacin, or propranolol. Extensive testing is necessary to determine the headache cause. Surgery to correct organic disease is occasionally indicated.	Alternative forms of exercise. Avoid jarring exercises.
Post-Traumatic Headaches	Localized or generalized pain, can mimic migraine or tension-type headache symptoms. Headaches usually occur on daily basis and are frequently resistant to treatment.	Pain can occur after relatively minor traumas. Cause of pain is often difficult to diagnose.	Possible treatment by use of antiinflammatory drugs, propranolol, or biofeedback.	Standard precautions against trauma.
Hunger Headaches	Pain strikes just before mealtime. Caused by muscle tension, low blood sugar, and rebound dilation of the blood vessels, oversleeping or missing a meal.	Strenuous dieting or skipping meals.	Regular, nourishing meals containing adequate protein and complex carbohydrates.	Same as treatment.
Temporomandibul ar Joint (TMJ) Headaches	A muscle-contraction type of pain, sometimes accompanied by a painful "clicking" sound on opening the jaw. Infrequent cause of headache.	Caused by malocclusion (poor bite), stress, and jaw clenching.	Relaxation, biofeedback, use of bite plate. In extreme cases, correction of malocclusion.	Same as treatment.
Tic Douloureux Headaches	Short, jab like pain in trigger areas found in the face around the mouth or jaw. Frequency and longevity of pain varies. Relatively rare disease of the neural impulses; more common in women after age 55.	Cause unknown. Pain from chewing, cold air, touching face. If under age 55, may result from neurological disease, such as MS.	Anticonvulsants and muscle relaxants. Neurosurgery.	None.
Fever Headaches	Generalized head pain that develops with fever. Caused by swelling of the blood vessels of the head.	Caused by infection.	Aspirin, acetaminophen, NSAIDs, antibiotics.	None.
Arthritis Headaches	Pain at the back of head or neck. Intensifies on movement. Caused by inflammation of the blood vessels of the head or bony changes in the structures of the neck.	Cause of pain is unknown.	Anti-inflammatory drugs, muscle relaxants.	None.
Eyestrain Headaches	Usually frontal, bilateral pain, directly related to eyestrain. Rare cause of headache.	Muscle imbalance. Uncorrected vision, astigmatism.	Correction of vision.	Same as treatment.
Temporal Arteritis	A boring, burning, or jabbing pain caused by inflammation of the temporal arteries. Pain, often around ear, on chewing. Weight loss, eyesight problems. Rarely affects people under 50.	Cause is unknown. May be due to immune disorder.	Steroids after diagnosis. Confirmed by biopsy.	None.
Tumor Headache	Pain progressively worsens, projectile vomiting, possible visual disturbances speech or personality changes; problems with equilibrium, gait, or coordination; seizures. Extremely rare condition.	Cause of tumor is usually unknown.	If discovered early, treat with surgery or newer radiological methods.	None.
Tension-Type Headaches	Dull, non-throbbing pain, frequently bilateral, associated with tightness of scalp or neck. Degree of severity remains constant.	Emotional stress. Hidden depression.	Rest, aspirin, acetaminophen, ibuprofen, naproxen sodium, combinations of analgesics with caffeine, ice packs, muscle relaxants. Antidepressants if appropriate, biofeedback, psychotherapy. If necessary, temporary use of stronger prescription analgesics.	Avoidance of stress. Use of biofeedback, relaxation techniques or antidepressant medication.
Migraine without Aura	Severe, one-sided throbbing pain, often accompanied by nausea, vomiting, cold hands, sensitivity to sound and light.	Certain foods, the Pill or menopausal hormones, excessive hunger, changes in altitude, weather, lights, excessive smoking, and emotional stress. Hereditary component.	Ice packs; isometheptene mucate, combination products containing caffeine, ergotamine, DHE injectable and nasal spray, 5-HT agonists; analgesics or medications, which constrict the blood vessels. For prolonged attacks steroids may be helpful.	Biofeedback, betablockers (propranolol, timolol), anti-convulsant (divalproex sodium). Calcium blockers and NSAIDs may prevent or treat migraine headaches.
Migraine with Aura	Similar to migraine without aura, except warning symptoms develop. May include visual disturbances, numbness in arm or leg. Warning symptoms subside within one-half hour, followed by severe pain.	Same as migraine without aura.	At earliest onset of symptoms, treat using biofeedback, ergotamine, dihydroergotamine or a 5-HT agonist. Once pain has begun, treatment is identical to migraine without aura.	Prevent with same techniques as migraine without aura.
Cluster Headaches	Excruciating pain in vicinity of eye. Tearing of eye, nose congestion, flushing of face. Pain frequently develops during sleep and may last for several hours. Attacks occur every day for weeks/month, then disappear for up to a year. 80% of cluster patients are male, most ages 20-50.	Alcoholic beverages, excessive smoking.	Oxygen, ergotamine, sumatriptan or intranasal application of local anesthetic agent.	Use of steroids, ergotamine, calcium channel blockers and lithium.
Menstrual Headaches	Migraine-type pain that occurs shortly before, during, or immediately after menstruation or at mid-cycle (at time of ovulation).	Variances in estrogen levels.	Same treatment as migraine.	Small doses of vasoconstrictors and/or anti-inflammatory drugs before and during menstrual period may prevent headaches. Hysterectomy does not cure menstrual headaches.
Hypertension Headaches	Generalized or "hairband" type pain, most severe in the morning. Diminishes throughout day.	Severe hypertension: over 200 systolic and 110 diastolic.	Treat with appropriate blood pressure medication.	To prevent, keep blood pressure under control.
Aneurysm	Symptoms may mimic frequent migraine or cluster headaches, caused by balloon-like weakness or bulge in blood-vessel wall. May rupture (stroke) or allow blood to leak slowly resulting in a sudden, unbearable headache, double vision, rigid neck. Individual rapidly becomes unconscious.	Congenital tendency. Extreme hypertension.	If aneurysm is discovered early, treat with surgery.	To prevent, keep blood pressure under control.
Sinus Headaches	Gnawing pain over nasal area, often increasing in severity throughout day. Caused by acute infection, usually with fever, producing blockage of sinus ducts and preventing normal drainage. Sinus headaches are rare. Migraine and cluster headaches are often misdiagnosed as sinus in origin.	Infection, nasal polyps, anatomical deformities, such as a deviated septum, that block the sinus ducts.	Treat with antibiotics, decongestants, surgical drainage if necessary.	None.
Allergy Headaches	Generalized headache. Nasal congestion, watery eyes.	Seasonal allergens, such as pollen, molds. Allergies to food are not usually a factor.	Antihistamine medication; topical, nasal cortisone related sprays or desensitization injections.	None.

According to the chart..

Three possibilities

Migraine without Aura

Migraine with Aura

Cluster Headache

My guess is Migraine without Aura..

Because I seem to be able to smell this metal thingy and it makes my headache real bad..

Then it feels like cluster..

Cos I feel that my eyes are popping..

I am so tempted to eat the paracetamol prescribed to my mum for muscle-ache.

Then I scared I may be poisoned but my mum said all paracetamol works the same..

The sleeping aid has to kick it lar..

--- 9:52 AM

I ate too much junk food for the past 2 days..

LIKE REALLY TOO MUCH.

Tsk... How ar, feeling super guilty.

Putting that aside.. I am really nervous about leading praise and worship in zone OPM. First session some more, where got so much stamina?

And I really want to make sure that I can lead people in P&W during OPM. As such, I will be fasting from Tuesday to Saturday. (6 to 6 first ar... Prob next week, full fast)

So DANIEl, if you are reading this.. You can join me ya?

Fast and Pray!!

Dreamers --- 10:50 AM

I saw "This Is It" on Monday with Elvin. It really felt like a visit to paradise, a glimpse of how the concert would be if Michael was still around.

He shared his magic with the world. He was talent itself.

At age 50, but still filled with dreams and visions. He kept his dream alive.

Michael has the ability to take me out of this world and be captivated by his vision.

It was very emotional for me to see the magic that Michael was trying to create.

It was only captivated moments of the man who was once alive. And that is the best that we can get now. Moments..

As I watched, I understood the power behind his magic.

This man performed in the name of love. To him, Love was the greatest no matter what.

For the past few weeks, I've been thinking about talents and dreams.

I need to hold on to something in my life, a reason to pursue and to live in this world.

I don't want to live for the sake of living, I want to pour my life into something that I believe strongly even if it were to take the whole of my life to do that.

I want to be excited even when I am old.

Despite wanting all these, I want to do it in the name of love so that I will not be consumed by pride.

Lately, I am very drawn to people who has lived their dreams for all their lives. We had a few speakers in school and they are not young people. These people work through their lives believing in something.

Fred Wang, the CEO of salon films. He has dedicated his life to the film industry and now he has this program of grooming film makers and giving them a chance to shoot by endorsing their script and looking for talents.

He spoke with humility. During reception, he just turned to me and asked me to take my food as well. He was just like any other ordinary guy but who has lived an extraordinary life.

So I kept asking myself, what is it that I am seeking.. What is it that I am looking and what is that I believe in.

I want to be a dreamer who is able to her own dream.

Yet another friday! --- 9:29 AM

I have a very boring blog... It's full of ramblings.. I am a lousy blogger and you should probably stop reading my blog.

HA!

I woke up at 7.55am, went to brush my teeth quickly and then rushed to the living room to watch Grey's Anatomy. It's funny how I had to rush even though I am living in a HDB FLAT.

Grey's Anatomy is what that makes me wake up early everyday. People are amazed at how early I wake up in the morning though lessons only start at 10am.

Grey's Anatomy is the force people!

Usually I will try to wake up between 7am to 7.15am, take a shower.. pray a bit.. then watch Grey's Anatomy at 8am. And if there are breakfast, I will just munch my breakfast while watching.

In between commercials, I will change into my clothes, print my stuffs etc..

The show will finish at about 8.50am.. I will take my bag and leave for school.

If I have examinations.. I will wake up at about 5.3oam or 6am?

If there's only one addiction, it would be Grey's Anatomy. I am such a huge fan. I've lost count on how many times I have watched Season 1 to 3 because there are so many re-runs..

IN TV... we call this syndication. And this is how shows make money!

So for Grey's Anatomy, I am SURE they make HELL LOADS OF MONEY!

The next 5 to 6 weeks are gonna be "really exciting!"

Week 12: BIO PAPER 2, discovery paper 2, Overview of Producing Research Paper 2, 2nd last script due

Week 16: All the finals.

Then break for two pathetic weeks before my interterm starts..

Can you believe this? Taking an interterm module during holidays?

Got back my overview papers.. Seriously, I think I do better in essays than multiple choice. How can Multiple Choice be so tricky?

You know what I need?

I need a solid good date!

Eh Elvin, SEE THAT?

Delicious lunch with retail therapy.

They work very well together.

Alright.. Need to go cycle a bit, take a shower (haha.. gross right..), prepare for CG meeting. Then meet the guys to catch blue mansion.

Awed again.. --- 11:46 PM

I feel creativity pulsating in my veins.

To CREATE something!!!

I can't help but to feel awed when I see something magnificent.

A great song or orchestra piece, a great choreography, a great film or any expressions of ART..

And I feel very compelled to express, if not the same, but at least able to tell you the intricate web of feelings inside of me.

Not wanting to be ordinary but to be extraordinary.

Not wanting to write an average script but a clever script.

Not wanting to perform a mediocre song but something entertaining.

Whenever I feel creativity pulsating in my vein, like this very moment now, I can't breathe..

There are so many things that I want to express and I find it hard to contain or sometimes frustrated because I don't know the means to express it.

To me.. This is PURE MAGIC!

The kind of things that human can create when creativity hits!

To be able to carry the idea from conceptualization to execution gives me a rush that I can't even describe.

To be able to see things form before my eyes... Makes me want to pour my whole soul into it.

Can you understand what I am trying to say here?

Are you awed by the mere power of creativity?

and CRAP! I need to study for exam but here I am, totally captivated by another beautiful dance choreography, inspired by the hard work of these people who are trying to say something that will get into you head.

It makes me think really hard..

What is it that I want to create?

AH... CRAP!

I'm counting.. --- 11:23 AM

OKAY..

I wrote a few paragraphs of very emo stuffs and I got lost again. I am not cut out to be an emo writer lar.

But I am grappling with some issues dear to my heart.

It hurts to know that I can't connect to this friend like I used to anymore.

Again, it's very one sided.. I felt like I am ploughing to know something and trying to connect only to realize that I am forgotten and neglected.

We were best buddies..

But things change.. and when things become very one sided, it gets very tiring.

Intended or not intended.. putting that aside.. when was the last time U called and asked me "How am I?" and when was the last time you asked me out for a meal?

I did that but seems like I am always calling at the wrong time.

These days.. it's just about other people, other stuffs.. and disappearance for most parts.

So we get defensive, extremely careful of things that we say to each other.

This is not the kind of friendship that we once cherished.. it was natural, it was straightforward.

And this friend one of those very few that I am really opened myself to.

As time passes.. Things change..

People change focus.

Jobs.. New Friends.. Different beliefs..

Close to 7 years of friendship.. It hardly survive a decade.

The loss feels like losing a family..

Bygones..

It's just too sad... to even think about it.

I have another paper tomorrow and I didn't have a lot of time to study.. But I guess the material is not as heavy as the 2 papers last week. I think it should be fine..

Just need to spend some time reading through different slides and all.

How ar?

I so seriously need someone to talk to lar..

Christopher Walken Poker Face Halloween --- 10:30 AM

hahaha!!!

I love Christopher Walken!